camo_prince | 13 || . . .

That's right.

I spoke to Ginko finally and.. well. You and I can give it a shot. Together, I mean.

Can... you come over to the other apartments? I don't want to talk in the room. ~~Don't really want to talk at all, but... have to... and~~ I want to see you...

Of course.

*Thus, about a half hour later Hibari was knocking on Maguri's door.*

*Maguri answered the door after a few minutes and his hair was mussed and his eyes were somewhat red, like he'd been crying. He swallowed hard and his voice was quiet when he spoke* The roof ok? I couldn't think of anywhere else to talk alone without leaving.

Sure.. come on. *He reached to gently take Maguri's hand and lead him up toward the roof.*

*Maguri was grateful for being led and was fairly quiet as they headed up one more level to reach the roof. The crisp, cool air felt pretty good on his face, but he didn't really notice it, too busy trying to figure out what to say... *

I remembered someone... from back home...

Did you really...?

*Took him over to the edge and sat down with him, not letting go of his hand.. not suspecting a thing yet! He was still in a pretty good mood.*

... someone who's never going to forgive me if I ever... *Paused to make sure he wouldn't start crying again, sniffling* ... ever see them again.

....

*Slowly, he released Maguri's hand, expression going from happy and calm to blank rather quickly.*

In what way?

... his name is Yoshitaka, but we call him Maora because.... well, I can't remember, but it's probably because of something weird, because he's weird....

I've known him since we were both little... and...

I think he was my boyfriend....

I see.

*He went quiet, contemplating... though, really, nothing was going through his head. He couldn't think. Finally, he'd gone and straightened things out so they could-- but now Maguri had a boyfriend and--

He didn't know what to say. So, he stood, looking out into the distance.*

I understand.

*Maguri had scrambled to his feet when Hibari had stood and looked at him, pained*

Wh-what? What do you understand? Cause I don't know what I'm supposed to do....

I don't know if I'll even ever see Maora again...........

And I do still like you too... and... *He sighed miserably* I don't know what to do. *There were a few tears now, but he tried to wipe them away quickly*

You're conflicted.

You have memories to sort though. That's enough to worry about without you having to think of our situation, too. So just forget about it if that makes it easier for you.

*Sighed softly, sticking his hands in his pockets.*

Kyouyan...

I... just... *Sat down again and buried his face in his knees, curling them up to his chest*

But... I... I really like you and wanted to see if....

This isn't fair! I hate this place. It shouldn't mess around with people like this, damnit!

...I can make this all really easy for you if you want, Chestnut.

Do you want me to? Just say the word..

*The blonde lifted his head slowly to look up at Hibari*

What are you talking about?

*He turned and walked back over to Maguri, kneeling in front of him. He took him firmly by the shoulders and kissed him.*

*Maguri really hadn't known what to expect from Hibari when he'd said that, but that definately took him by surprise. His shoulders tensed under Hibari's hands for a moment before they fell slack and relaxed. Wide gold eyes slid closed as the war within him went silent temporarily and he just accepted the kiss, even leaning up into it hesitantly.*

*One hand slid into Maguri's hair as his other arm slid down and wound around his waist, pulling him onto his lap. He tipped his head slightly, deepening their kiss, only keeping at it a few seconds longer before breaking it. Hibari stayed close though, bumping foreheads. He really didn't want to stop but it probably wouldn't do to overwhelm the poor blond even more.*

*Maguri sat there, dumbfounded for a few blissful moments of not thinking, but soon enough he sagged into Hibari and bit back tears. Maora.... would never forgive him for this, he was pretty sure. Besides how would he ever explain that he had been on an island with no memories and fell for someone before he could remember him?

It sounded completely insane.

And he didn't know if he'd ever get home. Or see Maora again... and that hurt more than finding out he'd cheated on him. That he may never see his friends again....

It was more than the blonde could deal with by himself. That sort of loneliness, he couldn't do it. But here was Hibari who'd been through so much turmoil over whether they should see how things would go between them and liked him and... he was here. And understood.

It just wasn't fair at all.

The boy sat there in silence as he thought these things over for what was probably the fiftieth time already with his arms slung loosely around Hibari's neck, trying to sort things out.*

*Hibari understood far too well what Maguri was going through.

Which is why he found it so easy to try and distract him from all those thoughts, holding him close and secure, trailing soft kisses down his neck.

He wasn't very good with words so he didn't try to soothe him that way at all. It was much easier for him to communicate physically. Hopefully a little affection was good enough.*

*Maguri shivered a little with each distracting kiss, but it couldn't keep his mind from going round and round.

And each time he came to the same conclusion: He had no idea what was going to happen. What if he was living here the rest of his life?! And what if he'd given up on something with somebody he really liked because of that...?

And even if he made it home, he'd already... and they'd already... His ears burned a little, even as his head tipped in toward Hibari again, murmuring softly*

Are we bad people, Kyouyan? For wanting to be with someone while we are here even though we know there's other people we like....? That's okay, right... to want to not be alone?

I think... that even if we're doing something people would say is 'bad'.. no one has any right to tell us we have to be alone. That's for us to decide. If we want to be with someone that makes us happy, that should be okay. It doesn't mean you like that one, special person any less..

They... they should understand that. We're just lonely.

*Sighed, stroking his hair gently, looking at Maguri as he spoke. Once he finished speaking, he tipped his head close to kiss him again.*

*Maguri closed the distance between their lips and kissed Hibari softly even as his words continued to sink in.

... They would want them to be happy and not hurt, right? To not be lonely?

He... He was pretty sure he wouldn't want Maora to be lonely. Or Takataka... And he didn't want Hibari to be either.

Somehow... this all made more sense and he was grateful for the words, so grateful. He deepened the kiss and his embrace tightened around Hibari*

*Hibari returned that kiss just as deeply, his hand rubbing Maguri's thigh as his other arm stayed around his waist, keeping him close.

It was a little chilly up there and he was well-aware of that... maybe soon he'd suggest they take it inside.*

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